Ohmydearfriend.Ican'tkeepyoucompanylikeIpromised.It'ssosadtothinkaboutitnow......andtheonlythingthatIcando,iswaiting.Waiting?Waitingforwhat?I'mnotsure,butIknow,theopportunitiesmaybelate,buttheyneverextinguishorleaveushopeless.Whatdidyousay?
No!Theopportunitieswilleventuallyarrive,butit'sjustamatteroftime......
Thesunrisesandfalls.Theworldisblackandwhite.Thelittlemanthatisinfrontofatinycomputer,willneverbethesame.Thetimeisabsorbingmythoughtsandinspirations,leavinganemptybrainandanemptyheart.Themanisgrindingeveryday,driftinginandoutinthefogofanxiety.Hecan'tcry,ashisheartistoodry......
Thatwasthemoment,Ifeltclean.
That'sthebestexcuseIcangive......tothepoorandpatheticsoulofmine.
Atasameoldnight,Iwaswearingtheolddirtysuitwithmygreyishbelt.Iwasseatingonabenchattheplaza,motionlessly.Passers-bywalkedpastmewithhastyfootsteps.NooneknewwhatIwasdoing,andnobodycares.Inmybeadyeyes,thereflectionoftheaglowcitywasclearandbright.Inmyheart,Icouldn'tfeelanything.TheskyofEnglandwastrickyasamagician.Itcouldbecloudlessforaminute,butthenextmoment,itcouldbeaheavydown-pour.Therainsoonwaspouringdownandtheplazawassuddenlybeingcleared.Theonlypersonleft,wasme.Myvisionisblurredbytherainandmymindisincatastrophe.Iclosedmyeyesandletthewatercarrymeaway,toawonderland,toaplacethatIhadeverbeen.Mycareerhadtakendreamsandinspirationsawayfromme.He,wasathief,athiefthatIcouldn’tfightagainst,athiefthatIcouldn’tchaseaway.Hefilledmylungswithhatredanddespair.Iscreamedsoloud,butnooneheardathing.RainwaspouringdownandIwasdrowningwithmiserableness,butthatwasthemoment,Icouldfinallybreathe.
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